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[caithream]

Well, I finally got ahold of UCF. Yes, they said, we did receive your transcripts. We just cannot offer you a spot in this school right now, we just can't. Budget cuts, you understand. She did reassure me that it has nothing to do with my grades (I'm not exactly sure HOW much I believe that, but), which makes me feel better because I was beginning to think I was a lot stupider than I gave myself credit for. She also told me I can send a letter to the Appeals and Standards committee, and I'm really wondering how much good that'll do, exactly, but I guess I'll give it a shot. She said there's no harm in sending another application and transcript after my grades for this semester come in, so, that too I guess.

So, plan B, just in case. Alysha had the awesome idea of still staying at USF, but just doing online courses so I don't have to go to the campus. Basically, if everything goes according to plan (which, yeah, haha), my transcript from high school will show that I don't need any more language courses, so that 10 credits out of the way. That brings me to 27 credits total that I need to graduate. 6 credits are regular English classes, 3 credits is a Lit Criticism (ughghsdf), 9 credits is two exit course/major works requirements, and another 9 is electives. There's no way I can take any of those first three online, but I can get rid of the electives. So I signed up for Earth and Environmental System, Religion in America, and Social Psychology, all online. So that'll bring my grand total for credits left before I graduate to 18.

Here's where it starts to get interesting. IF I actually do get into UCF for the spring semester (which might be a pretty big "if," I guess, if I can't even get in right now), and IF they actually have and I can get into the classes that I need to graduate, that means I'll be doing SIX Lit classes, all at once. Except MAYBE the major works classes, if I can find ones in different departments, but those aren't exactly going to be a breeze anyway. My head just might explode. And that's even if the credit requirements are the same at UCF as they are at USF. They could very well not be. I could need more, or less. And if, for some reason, I can't get the credits that I need to graduate during the spring, dude, I don't even know. I'm pretty sure the lease for wherever we'll be staying will end before I can finish the classes I need during the summer semester, and if I'm going to be the only one who hasn't finished yet.... I don't know. I guess it would depend on what happens with everyone else, too.

So yeah. Assload of "ifs."

Basically, if my plan was all that I wanted to stick to, I'd be pretty fucked. But every time I start to have a flaily panic attack I think, dude, you're taking a YEAR OFF after you graduate, it's not like you have anywhere to BE or an obligation to fill, so just feel it out and go from there. So, ha, yeah, I'm trying. If I DO move out west after I graduate (AHEM, AHEM), it ain't going anywhere, so I DO have plenty of time to finish up loose ends, whatever they may be. Really, I'm going to repeat this until I feel less and less like sticking my head in the oven.

I just REALLY REALLY hope this isn't a sign, or something, and that everything else will fall into place beautifully with the house and moving jobs and everything 'cause holy God almighty I want to do this so bad. SO BAD.

Added on to that, my Oma is going in for her lumpectomy surgery for breast cancer tomorrow morning, and I just, my stomach is doing gymnastics, she isn't exactly YOUNG. I just really hope everything is okay. :\

But! I might be going to a hookah lounge tomorrow night, and then Thursday distantechoes is coming over after I get off of work AND WE'RE GONNA WATCH SUPERNATURAL TOGETHER, OMG. So there is that!

Drinking would also be REALLY AWESOME right now, but I don't think my professor would appreciate me turning in a paper that looks like a drive-by drunk post. :>

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[caithream.livejournal.com]

Most definitely true. I'm very much a girl rooted in planning, so when a monkey wrench gets thrown in there I tend to freak quite a bit. But I'm sure everything will work out in the end. ♥♥♥ YOU.

YAAAY! Make sure to cry EXTRA MUCH at the last three episodes, heeee. <33333!!