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[caithream]

Well, I finally got ahold of UCF. Yes, they said, we did receive your transcripts. We just cannot offer you a spot in this school right now, we just can't. Budget cuts, you understand. She did reassure me that it has nothing to do with my grades (I'm not exactly sure HOW much I believe that, but), which makes me feel better because I was beginning to think I was a lot stupider than I gave myself credit for. She also told me I can send a letter to the Appeals and Standards committee, and I'm really wondering how much good that'll do, exactly, but I guess I'll give it a shot. She said there's no harm in sending another application and transcript after my grades for this semester come in, so, that too I guess.

So, plan B, just in case. Alysha had the awesome idea of still staying at USF, but just doing online courses so I don't have to go to the campus. Basically, if everything goes according to plan (which, yeah, haha), my transcript from high school will show that I don't need any more language courses, so that 10 credits out of the way. That brings me to 27 credits total that I need to graduate. 6 credits are regular English classes, 3 credits is a Lit Criticism (ughghsdf), 9 credits is two exit course/major works requirements, and another 9 is electives. There's no way I can take any of those first three online, but I can get rid of the electives. So I signed up for Earth and Environmental System, Religion in America, and Social Psychology, all online. So that'll bring my grand total for credits left before I graduate to 18.

Here's where it starts to get interesting. IF I actually do get into UCF for the spring semester (which might be a pretty big "if," I guess, if I can't even get in right now), and IF they actually have and I can get into the classes that I need to graduate, that means I'll be doing SIX Lit classes, all at once. Except MAYBE the major works classes, if I can find ones in different departments, but those aren't exactly going to be a breeze anyway. My head just might explode. And that's even if the credit requirements are the same at UCF as they are at USF. They could very well not be. I could need more, or less. And if, for some reason, I can't get the credits that I need to graduate during the spring, dude, I don't even know. I'm pretty sure the lease for wherever we'll be staying will end before I can finish the classes I need during the summer semester, and if I'm going to be the only one who hasn't finished yet.... I don't know. I guess it would depend on what happens with everyone else, too.

So yeah. Assload of "ifs."

Basically, if my plan was all that I wanted to stick to, I'd be pretty fucked. But every time I start to have a flaily panic attack I think, dude, you're taking a YEAR OFF after you graduate, it's not like you have anywhere to BE or an obligation to fill, so just feel it out and go from there. So, ha, yeah, I'm trying. If I DO move out west after I graduate (AHEM, AHEM), it ain't going anywhere, so I DO have plenty of time to finish up loose ends, whatever they may be. Really, I'm going to repeat this until I feel less and less like sticking my head in the oven.

I just REALLY REALLY hope this isn't a sign, or something, and that everything else will fall into place beautifully with the house and moving jobs and everything 'cause holy God almighty I want to do this so bad. SO BAD.

Added on to that, my Oma is going in for her lumpectomy surgery for breast cancer tomorrow morning, and I just, my stomach is doing gymnastics, she isn't exactly YOUNG. I just really hope everything is okay. :\

But! I might be going to a hookah lounge tomorrow night, and then Thursday distantechoes is coming over after I get off of work AND WE'RE GONNA WATCH SUPERNATURAL TOGETHER, OMG. So there is that!

Drinking would also be REALLY AWESOME right now, but I don't think my professor would appreciate me turning in a paper that looks like a drive-by drunk post. :>

Comments

[fresleyforever.livejournal.com]

Good luck with everything study related. I can only imagine how tough it is. *big squishes*

I hope everything goes well in the surgery tomorrow-I'll hold you and your Oma in my thoughts. ♥

[caithream.livejournal.com]

Thank you darling, on both accounts. ♥!!

[affectingly.livejournal.com]

*crosses fingers for your Oma* And I hope things work out on the school front... I understand, believe me. *squish*

[caithream.livejournal.com]

Why does college have to be so STRESSFUL omg. :( Thank you so much, though. ♥!

[giftedstudent.livejournal.com]

Oh wow. I hope that you don't get stuck with 6 Lit classes in one semester. That's ROUGH. Hopefully, you can find a way to satisfy grad requirements around that.

Think good thoughts about your gram and it should all be fine. Try not to worry too much (if that's at all possible). Dianetics and all that; the power of positive thought :)

[caithream.livejournal.com]

The craziness just keeps on multiplying, so probably not six. I'll probably just end up being a fifth year senior, sigh. :\

Thank you, babe. ♥!

[spazzbot.livejournal.com]

I'm sure you're tired of hearing that things will work out regarding the school thing, but they will, sweetie. But still, I can imagine how frustrating that much be! *hugs*

Also, I will be thinking good thoughts about your Oma for tomorrow!

I've always wanted to go to a hookah lounge but never have, hmm.

SPN THURSDAY WHAT.

[caithream.livejournal.com]

SO frustrating. I wish I was three years old so I could stomp my feet and throw a temper tantrum, haha. Thank you so much, darling. ♥

We are SO going to one next time we are together! If you find the right place they can be a lot of fun. :D

[riverdresses.livejournal.com]

::snuggles you up tight for school & your Oma::

Ooo, hookah lounge! Let us know how it is if you go! (& I'll try not to be too jealous! :P)

[caithream.livejournal.com]

Thank you, babe. <333

We totally got chocolate mint and then watermelon, with a draft of beer on the side. :D!!

[distantechoes.livejournal.com]

I'm sending so so so many good vibes out to your Oma, I wish her all the luck there is!

I just compiled a lot of stressful crap into an email for you to look through, unfortunately, but I want you to remember to breathe and relax, even if you don't go hookah-ing.
I'll see you on Thursday and we'll have a SUPERNATURALLY great time! Too cheesy? I thought so.

p.s. - drinking is so the plan, as soon as finals are over.

[caithream.livejournal.com]

Heeee, why is everyone always like, don't freak out, breathe and relax to me?! OH WAIT, because I freak out like, WITH EVERYTHING. Ahahaaa. ILU so much, you know. ♥♥♥

MY GOD YES. You just GIVE ME THE DATE and I'll uh, check it with my work schedule and if I'm open THEN I'LL BE SO THERE. :DDD

[stargazertook.livejournal.com]

Six Lit classes at once?! Dude that's crazy! Yeesh!

Well, I hope it all works out for you ... in fact, I know it will, somehow. Maybe not EXACTLY as you planned, but somehow.

And I'm sending you some positive juju that all goes well with your Oma.

SUPERNATURAL!!!!!! I'm almost done with season 2 ... I'll be going through withdrawal soon, I just know it.

<333333333333333333333333333333

[caithream.livejournal.com]

Most definitely true. I'm very much a girl rooted in planning, so when a monkey wrench gets thrown in there I tend to freak quite a bit. But I'm sure everything will work out in the end. ♥♥♥ YOU.

YAAAY! Make sure to cry EXTRA MUCH at the last three episodes, heeee. <33333!!

[mousewings.livejournal.com]

I'm sending good vibes to you and your Oma.

[caithream.livejournal.com]

Thank you, babe. ♥!

[quidditchkiss.livejournal.com]

Man that sucks about the UCF thing. You sound like you've been really wanting this for awhile, and I only say that because I've only just recently friended you, but it just sounds like this is something you were really hoping for. I know about school-related things falling through on you. *hugs tight* I'm sorry babe.

[caithream.livejournal.com]

Very much so. :(( I'm very much rooted in planning and when something goes wrong I tend to freak a bit, haha. Everything will most likely work out (just not the way I wanted it to), it's just gonna take a bit of rearranging. But thank you, babe. ♥!!

[hellogloworm.livejournal.com]

ok so listen... this is completely unrelated but you're on here so much that it's our best means of communication at 7am.

bridesmaid dress: your pick.. but it has to be black, satin/silk, and knee length. i didn't think it was fair to make everybody buy matching $200 dresses so it's up to you!

[caithream.livejournal.com]

Sounds good to me. :)