caithream | (no subject)

Literally cannot deal with the sea of feels from last night's episode. JFC. From Dean nesting, to the picture of Mary, to cooking for Sam, and you're not a grunt, Dean, you're a genius, to Dean's happy ending only being that Sam is happy, BUT SAM'S HAPPY ENDING IS THAT BOTH OF THEM ARE TOGETHER AND HAPPY

TO THE HORRIBLE, AWFUL, PLEASE-JUST-LET-ME-DIE REALIZATION THAT SAM SAVED DEAN FROM A HELLHOUND THIS TIME

BECAUSE LAST TIME

HE COULDN'T

ughgughghaodija;gew

and also this

it pains me

NOW, if Dean could somehow be front-and-center involved in, say, trials from the angel tablet, or some such? That would be great. Really great.

In other news, I'm moving. I'm finally going to do it. I've only waffled about it for the last three years, but barring any unforeseen disaster, I'm moving to New York City on April 13th.

The plan is thus: I'm not taking my car, nor any furniture. I'm probably going to pack three huge suitcases with all my stuff, and fly up. Hopefully I can find some couch to crash on for a little bit (good thing couchsurfing.com exists, ha), and in the meantime, I'll be looking for a long term room to rent. I've already been looking quite extensively for the past few months in the area that I want, so I have a good idea of what I'm looking for. What I'm really worried about is not being able to find what I'm looking for in the short window that I need it. I very very much need a place that's clean and quiet (especially after the fiasco of living in Orlando), and, since I'm taking no furniture, some place that's at least furnished with a bed and a dresser. And, of course, the cost. So. Yeah. I'm pretty stressed about it. So far I've had one legit conversation with someone about a room after placing an ad on craigslist, so, we'll see.

I also know I'm going to get crazy homesick, and I'm not looking forward to it. ;___; Pretty much all of my friends are being really supportive and saying I'd be dumb NOT to go, since I'll be turning 26 a few days before I leave, and this is really the best time in my life to do it. I won't miss Florida, but I have a lot of roots here. Fortunately, though, my parents are working as fast as they can to fix up our house and put it on the market and move up to north Georgia. Even though I'll miss my house of 25+ years, it'll be easier to deal with knowing that my parents will be starting out in a new place as well.

As for my job, I'll be transferring to a Starbucks up there, staying for hopefully no more than six months, and then finding a big girl job. Like, in publishing and editing, if I'm lucky. I'll cross that bridge when I come to it, though.

So. LESS THAN TWO MONTHS. I have so much to doooo.