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[caithream]

So. Here's my deal.

Saturday July 30th my parents and I are flying up to Chicago to visit my sister. From Chicago I will be flying to NYC to visit some cool internet peoples, which I am very happy and excited about.

My plan is/was to quit my job on July 29th. I've been debating giving my boss a three week to one month notice of my leaving, but after a few things that have happened very recently, this is no longer the case. A few of my friends are saying to just quit and leave on the same day, but I think my mother will flog me if I do, haha. So now I'm just giving a standard two week notice, hell if I care if you can't find a replacement/get them trained before I leave. Look at all the fucks I do not give.

The thing is though... Saturday July 16th a lot of my family in north Georgia are having a get-together, and I haven't seen some of them in ages, and I really really want to go, plus spend about a week up there, which I looooove doing. This, coupled with the fact that I very nearly had a meltdown in my chair today at work, is making me think that I want to quit two weeks earlier and just kanyeshrug the fact that I'd be missing out on two weeks worth of paychecks that I could get if I worked until July 29th. I know what the adult decision would be, but with how shittily I'm being treated, I'm almost at my wits end now, never mind almost two months from now. Honestly, today my heart would not stop racing because I was so angry/stressed/scared/etc. Not cool. So. Ugh. I guess I'll just... wait and see how things go. If things improve at ALL, which would be a miracle.

I know I've said this before, but my coworker is just an awful awful horrible human being. And the really upsetting thing is that she drags my boss into it as well, as they've known each other for 7+ years, so if I didn't feel like a total outsider already, my coworker goes and tells my boss things about me that are colored by her bias, and yet, my boss doesn't give me the common courtesy to ask my side of issues. And I mean really, how are you supposed to act when your coworker is extremely rude and abrupt over the phone when passing along calls, slams doors in your face, is so condescending you just have to fucking laugh, shoots you glares that easily spell out oh-my-god-i-wish-you-would-die, and basically treats you like a diseased moron? How do you handle that? And I just... it's stuff like today, I sent her a message saying, "Did Mr. So-and-so turn in their document to you, as I see a copy in the system, but I'm not sure if it's 100% complete?" and her response is, "I have no idea. I thought you were supposed to be tracking it," AND I'M JUST LIKE, "I AM tracking it, that's WHY I'M ASKING YOU IF HE TURNED THE FULL DOCUMENT IN TO YOU WITHOUT ME KNOWING." Little shit like that, that's honestly not that big of a deal, but says SO MUCH in the connotations (that she always has to have the upper hand in the conversation, that she has to always belittle me), and I can DEAL with shitty people hating me, I can DEAL with that, because it's hilarious and I can ignore them, but when you have to work with them? It's so fucking stupidly unprofessional and straight out of a 9th grade clique, it amazes me.

In the past I haven't gone to her to ask questions because I usually get my head bitten off for interrupting her, but yeah, even more so now. So I get these moments where I freeze and panic because if I do ask her about something, there's a good possibility she'll end up making me hate myself for asking, and if I don't ask and just do what I can and I get it wrong, well, same thing.

I should tell my boss all this, sure, but like I've mentioned so many times before, I'm utterly utterly terrified of confrontation, and unless I get so angry I see red (which happened yesterday, and I was five seconds away from going into my boss's office, shutting the door, and being extremely vehement), I'm generally just a door mat. Also the fact that since my boss and my coworker are so far up each other's asses, what good is it going to do to complain about someone who she's biffles with?

If anything, I desperately, desperately want to leave, I don't know, a sticky note on my desk the day I leave, saying something like, Good luck trying to find someone who's had the patience to deal with [coworker]'s attitude for as long as I have. :) Oh God, do I want to. My dad was even telling me to "kill with kindness," like leave a note to them thanking them profusely for being so extremely helpful and kind and willing to help me out on every little problem I had, lol. But the former would be so much more satisfying. So. Maybe. MAYBE.

All of this over a stupid, low-paying, an-answering-machine-could-do-my-job receptionist position. It's awesome. I'm going to end up with an ulcer. If I can just make it through the next 6 weeks (please, please just let me get through the next six weeks), then I'm golden. I apologize in advance for all the complaining until then.



But whatever, tonight I'm going out for drinks (lol when am I not going out for drinks) and then tomorrow is only a half of day of work, and then we've got relatives coming over for the weekend. And then. Six weeks. Lord beer me strength.

Comments

[caithream.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much darling, since my mood and self-esteem have plummeted lately, that's, you know, nice to hear. ;__; But yeah, as you have probably likely heard by now, I'm putting in my two weeks on Friday, so I'll be gone sooner than I anticipated! THANK JESUS. And then it's just counting down the days until I finally get to NYC eeeee!

[shirebourn.livejournal.com]

Man, if you have the money saved up, I say quit as soon as possible. You could get those kind of wages anywhere, there's no reason to stay there an extra two weeks. Having a job you hate is just as emotionally wrecking as having no job at all, and as long as you don't have to worry about rent, I'd say a few more weeks of unemployment won't be so bad.

ALSO

YAY

HOW LONG WILL YOU BE IN TOWN :D :D :D

[caithream.livejournal.com]

Yeaaaah I've decided to put my two weeks in on Friday. I just can't handle this anymore. :(

I will be coming August 3rd through the 9th! AND OMG I WANT TO COME SEE YOU IF THAT'S OKAY. :DDDDD