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[caithream]

Sorry, no posting because I have nothing to talk about except how much I hate my job and how depressed it's making me and that would just be boring and repetitive, so. (But really, have I mentioned that the coworker slammed a door in my face on Friday, and, oh yeah, I have yet to receive a raise since I started there a year and a half ago? Yeah.)

I've also been having miniature panic attacks because I have no fucking clue what I want to do with my life. I mean, there's what I'd LIKE to do, but as far as figuring out what is beneficial and smart and will further my life so I will be fitter, happier, more productive etc... I have no idea. I am good at very very few things and mediocre with most things and I swear if I bounce around nothing but office jobs for the rest of my working life, I will be a deeply damaged person. (To be fair, my mom did remind me that not all office jobs are as soul-sucking as the one I work at now, which I agree, so lol good luck on finding the good ones, self.) I know, regular welcome-to-adulthood crisis, I'm not the first, but I am the kind of person who gets really really upset when there isn't a Plan. I greatly enjoy having a Plan.

This makes me sound like I'm not doing well, but, meh, I'm okay. I think once I quit this job, I'll be stellar. Then I'm going to have some mental downtime and figure out just what the hell I'm going to do.

Today was good because, you know, day off (which tends to lead to those awful office-y conversations after you get back, you know: "Hey, how was your weekend?" "Good, but way too short, ha ha!" "Oh yes, I need a weekend from my weekend, HA HA."), and I went over to my aunt and uncle's place and had BBQ and carrot cake and swam in the pool. At least I have a short week this week, and my parents are back from their trip to Alaska, which helped to lessen the depression that was piling on me the past two weeks or so.

This also makes me happy, so I must inflict it on you also:



Derptown USA. ♥

Comments

[itsthedetails.livejournal.com]

I love that first pic, it makes happy in the face when Jensen is silly.

[caithream.livejournal.com]

ME TOO. There's something about a guy that's not afraid to do silly things, it just makes them THAT much more attractive to me. :D

[caithream.livejournal.com]

<33333 Thank you so much darling, I appreciate that immensely. I desperately want to find a career that actually feels worthwhile and rewarding (as opposed to making overpriced coffee and dealing with baby mama drama), but I've been trying to remind myself that that may take time to find. I do hope your sister also finds the same! ♥

[caithream.livejournal.com]

Hopefully my calling is somewhere in NYC! \o/

OMG TOM HARDYYYYY you have arm muscles. And lips. HI.

[nerdwegian.livejournal.com]

LOLOL WTF ARE THESE PHOTOS?!

[caithream.livejournal.com]

:DDDD

[skygazing.livejournal.com]

First: PHOTOS. I don't even know, but I love.

Second: :( I think life just wouldn't be life without the recurring "omg wtf am I doingggggg?!!?!" I've kind of stopped worrying about figuring out What I'm Going To Do With My Life and decided to take things as they come. I'm totally with you on liking a plan and wanting to know what's going on. For what it's worth, I don't think you'll be stuck in an office job you hate for the rest of your working life...some people, yeah that does happen. But my dear, you not only got yourself a degree, you got yourself to visit Europe. And if you're able to get yourself across an ocean to go have adventures? When the opportunity arises for you to do something different...it might be hard, but you'll be able to do it. And the great thing about careers is (unless you're a highly specialized brain surgeon with a PhD and $200K in loans), you're not stuck with the one you're in.

Also! The family I nannied for this summer - the mom was a Deputy Director of an organization at the Embassy...kind of a big deal(?) and one night talking with her about when she looks through resumes for people she hires, she told me that she doesn't even *look* at the first couple years someone's out of college, cuz that time (aka This time) is when people are figuring out who they are and what they want to do.

So, I guess all those words to say, you may not have a plan yet (I sure don't lol), but you'll find one eventually :) And in the meantime...if you want to quit your job and move to Colorado to be a whitewater rafting guide? Umm, do it.

And, since we all need reminding sometimes, as often as needed, watch this video and repeat after Barney Stinson: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3I-Fyh6XQw0
:) <3

[caithream.livejournal.com]

N'aww Alli, you always know what to say! Yes, I definitely think I need to step back and, like you said, take things as they come instead of trying to have a plan (a plan that'll probably end up sabotaged anyway, haha), because maybe, JUST MAYBE, something wonderful will fall into my lap without me looking for it.

And if you're able to get yourself across an ocean to go have adventures? When the opportunity arises for you to do something different...it might be hard, but you'll be able to do it.

It's like you KNOW me, hee! Sometimes I still marvel that I forced myself to get out of my comfort zone and try new things, so I'm definitely hoping the same will be applicable for my career. :)

!!! HA, that would make a LOT of sense if some people who are hiring don't look at resumes for people my age. How annoying! But true I guess, because hey, look at me, I don't think I'm ready to settle into a career just yet! Idk babe, maybe we should just run away and joint the circus. ;D ♥ (PS, OH BARNEY, OH YOU. ♥!!)