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[caithream]

I'm seriously so torn between capslocking and keymashing my way into the next century and letting my ~feelings~ get in the way, but holy fuck, you guys. I cried. So so so hard. Oh my God. Just. I think the last time I cried that hard during an episode was the season 3 finale. Idk if it's 'cause I'm so tired but I'm getting myself all worked up again.

Seriously. Jo. Like. Fuck, you guys. This isn't even about opinions to (way) previous episodes about her, this is her as a badass, classy fucking chick who was epically brave until the end. Jesus. And Ellen, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. Those scenes were so touching, oh God I can't even. All I could think of was how much I suddenly wanted my mom and how homesick I was. When Ellen looked and saw that Jo had finally passed. God I can't stop crying. I can't stop.

But the thing? The thing that got me the most? "Kick it in the ass." Jesus Christ, I don't even know these people, and, seriously, if that wasn't a homage to Kim Manners, I don't know what would be. My heart. Seriously, I have no words.

I am deeply upset about Ellen's death mostly because she was, in a sense, another motherly figure for the boys, and now that's been ripped away too. Ellen, you badass, amazing lady.

And the scene with Dean and Jo, right before they leave... broke my heart. So hard. The kiss on the head, just. I love that he GENUINELY liked her, but respected her to not be a complete asshole. Ugh I seriously can't think on this anymore, I am way too tired and way too sad.

Okay. OKAY. I think. I have gotten all the tears out of my system. For now. So, of course, CAPSLOCK. EVERYTHING ELSE??? AMAZING AFLDKJA;LDKJA;LDJA;LJ!!!!!!!!! SHALL WE?

CROWLEEEEEEEEEEY!!!!!! ILU LIKE DEAN LOVES PIE. The kissing! Of the other dude! AND CASTIEL BEING A CREEPER IN THE BACKGROUND TEE HEE.

CROWLEY IS SUCH A BAMF. Oh, I guess you need ammunition! How about you DON'T MISS, OKAY MORONS?? AHAHAHHAHAHAHSHF;DAKSD F;ALSJ AND THEIR LITTLE FACES AHAHAHAHHA FOREEEEEEVER.

CASTIEL AND ELLEN DRINKING CONTEST. MY LIFE. HAS. BEEN. MADE. AOEWRIHAPWOEHAO;EAHFEOWJIAOE;W OH MY GOD YOU GUYS I JUST, I LOVE CASTIEL SO MUCH. I REALLY REALLY DO. "I think I'm starting to feel something." FJAF;LSDJFFFFFFFFFFFFFF. LOLOLOL AS SOMEONE COMMENTED, "IT'S LEGOLAS!CAS." AHAHAHHAHA I'M DYING.

"Since when have we done anything smart?" Boys. I love you. Please keep being morons and doing stupid things. BECAUSE I LOVE YOU.

HAHAHAHAH JO'S BAIT AND SWITCH. So excellent. THINK WITH YOUR HEAD, NOT WITH YOUR PEEN, DEAN. (Lol, peen Dean.)

Oh my GOD THE GROUP PHOTO OH MY GODDDDDDD. MY HEART GREW THREE THOUSAND SIZES. And Castiel the buzzkill, hahah OH MAN.

"Hey, have you ever heard of a door handle?" "Yes, I have." AHAHAHHS;DFALSDA. SO PRESH. <3 And homg all the Reapers! So freaky! I was like, OMG IS TESSA THERE. And Castiel being all badass teleporting everywhere I LOVE IIIIIT.

Omfg the hellhounds. DEAN YOU POOR BB. But then. With Jo. And. We've already had this conversation and I really can't do it again.

Oh man the Dean and Bobby conversation holy crap Dean's gotta be all LEADER-Y and Bobby is like their DAD and THIS SHOW, I SERIOUSLY CAN'T TAKE IT.

HOLY SHIT THE GRAVEYARD SCENE. LIKE. ALL OF IT. Dean shooting Lucifer right in the head!!! AND THEN HE FUCKING SAID, "OW." I KNEW IT I KNEW THE STUPID COLT WOULDN'T DO IT AUGH CROWLEY DID YOU NOT KNOW OR WERE YOU JUST JERKING THE WINCHESTERS AROUNDDDDD GODDDDD.

Seriously, Mark Whosiwhatsface? Awesome. So so so so awesome.

WAIT SO.

Only another angel can kill another angel RIGHT?? So obvs, that leaves MICHAEL killing Lucifer (aka, Dean killing Sam, wee!) or, OR. FUCKING CASTIEL. FUCKING. KILLING LUCIFER. OH MAAAAAAAN. CANNOT BRAIN FOR THE AWESOME AND HORRIFICNESS. :D D: :D D:

HOLY SHIT SAM YOU AND YOUR TEARS AND YOUR, YOUR. VEHEMENCE. IT WAS BEAUTIFUL AND I MAY HAVE SOBBED SOME MORE.

AND CASTIEL IS A BAMF FOR THROWING MEG ON THE FIRE. HAHAH OH MAN.

I'M SO CONFUSED ABOUT THE ENDING? WHAT? BUH? Did the commercials, like, go over airtime? How did they get back to Bobby's? What happened with Death? Did Cas zap them back? HAHA DID I MISS THAT?? But bawwww at the picture burning. WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT, BOBBY. I'd save it as a memento 'cause I'm stupidly sentimental like that. :( (Plus it was such a cute picture omg. :(((()

And, so, okay, wait, we were FIRST told Jan 7th, THEN it got moved to the 14th, AND NOW IT'S BACK ON THE 21ST??? I HATE YOU, CW. (The the promo looks kind of awesome omg.)

Ugh I seriously cannot deal or think upon this episode any more. I've been up since 4am with no nap and about 4 hours of sleep last night. Emotional drainage, ugh. FALSE. THIS IS NOT JUST A TELEVISION SHOW.

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[skygazing.livejournal.com]

somehow I didn't cry - I think I used up my allotted tears for the week yesterday or something, but omg, facial contortions were a go.

THE LAST SCENE WITH DEAN AND JO. MY HEART. ON THE FLOOR. IN PIECES. :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BREAK THE BOYS SO MUCH, KRIPKE, WHY!!