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[caithream]

The Starbucks in a mall in Oviedo called and left a message on my cellphone, saying that they have an opening July 1st and wondering if I was still interested. But this Starbucks is a) in a MALL and b) a good half an hour drive on a busy day. I'm pretty sure my manager only JUST emailed the other store, the one with the amazingly nice manager, but I'm gonna go ahead and call her tomorrow to see what's up. Hopefully she'll be able to tell me whether or not she was really truly serious about accepting my transfer, and if so, when that would be. Hopefully that'll give me a good enough answer to give the Oviedo store, sigh.

Finally started packing today. I dunno... I've been playing a mantra of I'm leaving I'm leaving I'm leaving, trying to shock myself into realization for so long now all I want to do is get it done. I've been having minor breakdowns at night while my family is asleep because even though they don't say it, I know I'm devastating them with this move and so I can't just tell them how scared I am and how homesick I'll be. But if I completely give in to sentimentality I'll be so screwed so... yeah. Just trying to gloss over the emotional aspects of everything and get it done.

Except... my last day of work is next Friday, and fuck, I'm really going to miss everyone.

I picked up a 7:30 to 2:15 shift for someone tomorrow, so early bedtime. I'm PMSing and moody and eating everything in sight so yeah, unconsciousness sounds really good right about now.

Comments

[heybritney.livejournal.com]

aww, I'm sorry. that sounds like it sucks. I know what that's like, when my family left and I was all by myself when I moved out for the winter at 16, I was crying for like an hour, and I wouldn't admit it to them. I love them to pieces, but I had to remember that I had to do what I came to do, and I mean, I loved what I was doing so I just chinned up and thought about what I loved.
I think it's worth it to remember your family is also always still there, you can always go back to them and talk to them and be with them and count on them. That's nice.

[caithream.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's exactly it, I guess. It needs to be done, but it hurts so bad doing it. But thank you so much, babe, these are definitely the kind of reminders I need. <3