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[caithream]

There are way too many emotions in me right now vying for complete control, so much so that at work I had stop what I was doing and just breathe because my hands were shaking and my mind was moving two steps ahead of my body and the cinder blocks on my chest even now just keep getting tighter and tighter. My brain, even unconsciously, just won't shut up for five minutes and give me some peace without worry and stress and regret and fear and loneliness and anxiousness and excitement all going at it at once. It's going to build and build and build until I break and this is nothing new and I still wish I would have just shut up five minutes ago.

For Mother's Day I got my mom a special edition DVD of To Kill a Mockingbird and she opened it and looked at me like she was gonna cry, and I nearly did; I put on my card, just because I'm moving out doesn't mean you can't be my mommy any more. I mean that so damn much it kills me.

Chrissy, Kate, and Lauren, I'm gonna go ahead and get the EyeCon tickets... if anyone else wants to sit with us, let me know really soon-ish.

Thursday is going to be the bursting of the dam.

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[idril-telrunya.livejournal.com]

Awwww honey. Sucks trying to be a grown-up isn't it? But you know what? You will be FINE! You know it, I know it, we all know it. Things will work out how they are supposed too. You can drive home weekends you don't work and hang out with the fam. You can call them everyday. But things will never be the same and that is a GOOD thing. I mean how are you EVER gonna marry Jensen if you still live at home, right?! Hee!! Just breathe and know that while it's scary as FUCK it's going to be very good. And if its not, shit, you know you can always go back home! Love you!

N'aaawwww you are so cute. I bet shes just as nervous and excited as you are! She will ALWAYS be your mommy. <3333

OK YAY! Just tell me when you want me to send you the check of MONEH and I shall do eet! I also texted Carol Lee to see if she was going to go platinum or wants to sit with us. She hasn't texted me back, but I will let you know what she says when she does!

Thursday is going to KILL me. I KNOW it. Gah!

[caithream.livejournal.com]

*Super cling* I certainly hope so! I've been telling myself that I've been wanting for things to be different for a while now, but now that it's actually HAPPENING I guess it's a little scary, haha. <333333

Yay! I'm gonna get them here pretty soon, Kate's just the last one I wanna make sure has the money to send me right now, 'cause yeah. Heh.

GONNA DIE SO BAD OMG. I DON'T THINK I CAN HANDLE IT.