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[caithream]

There are way too many emotions in me right now vying for complete control, so much so that at work I had stop what I was doing and just breathe because my hands were shaking and my mind was moving two steps ahead of my body and the cinder blocks on my chest even now just keep getting tighter and tighter. My brain, even unconsciously, just won't shut up for five minutes and give me some peace without worry and stress and regret and fear and loneliness and anxiousness and excitement all going at it at once. It's going to build and build and build until I break and this is nothing new and I still wish I would have just shut up five minutes ago.

For Mother's Day I got my mom a special edition DVD of To Kill a Mockingbird and she opened it and looked at me like she was gonna cry, and I nearly did; I put on my card, just because I'm moving out doesn't mean you can't be my mommy any more. I mean that so damn much it kills me.

Chrissy, Kate, and Lauren, I'm gonna go ahead and get the EyeCon tickets... if anyone else wants to sit with us, let me know really soon-ish.

Thursday is going to be the bursting of the dam.

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[caithream.livejournal.com]

I don't want you to feel like I'm completely regretting doing this, because I'm NOT, not at all, it's just. This is a HUGE transition in my life... I'm pretty much shutting one chapter and beginning another, and I'm so stupidly sentimental that it really really gets to me sometimes. But really, I'm so ridiculously excited I cannot even TELL YOU. <333

Consider yourself in! It's going to be SO MUCH FUN OMFG. Uggh, God, Thursday, how sad that I can't be there with you to flail around in my seat!

[distantechoes.livejournal.com]

Oh hon, do not worry about what I feel! I have been through the moving out thing myself, and I know how stressing and WEIRD it is. It's certainly beginning a new chapter, but it's not cutting out the people or places in your hometown! I was so afraid when I heard a line in Garden State; something like, "You know that point when you realize that the house that you grew up in isn't really your home anymore?" Well I still haven't reached that point, if I ever will. My home will always be where my heart (family) is!
Rambling to the point - I've been there, and if you ever wanna spill all the ranting and/or tears, I'll be here! Over the phone for now, and in person in June!

I would say I'd call you after the ep on Thursday, but I have the feeling we'll both be blubbering incoherants!!

[caithream.livejournal.com]

Seriously babe. I have no words to describe how much I heart you. I can't thank you enough for all of this, for serious. ♥