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[caithream]

TMI, maybe, but what the hell, y'all are all girls anyway.

Ever since I was about 15 or 16, I've been having really irregular periods. I'd go for 10 months without having one. Obviously, that's not normal, so over the years I've gone to three different gynecologists, and they've all told me it was nothing to worry about, just puberty and fitting into my own skin blah blah blah whatever. This just pissed off my mom, and finally, just a few months ago, she recommended me to the gyno I go to now.

Few weeks ago I went in for my first appointment with them, and told my doctor about all of it, and a few other things kind of related to it. She set me up for bloodwork, to look for different levels of testosterone, thyroid problems, etc, and a sonogram. I told her that I already had both when I was about 16 or so, but she said it wouldn't hurt to do it again.

Today was the appointment, and I had the sonogram (which, quite frankly, puts me in a weird mood... I look up at the screen and expect to see, I dunno, something, when really, sometimes I feel like I have a neon sign above my head flashing "HEY I'M A VIRGIN," but still... it's just really really weird), as well as a vaginal ultrasound, so, fun stuff, right? But yeah, really thorough. I was left in a room to wait.

News is, I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. Basically, my body isn't making the right horomones for the eggs to be released properly come time to have a period, so some may remain in the ovaries and become cysts. No ovulation means no progesterone, and no progesterone means continuation of no periods, one nice vicious cycle. Of course, at this point the first and foremost thing I want to know is but can I have children?

Yes... but. There is always a but. If things keep going the way they're going for a while, it could become no. Birth control (which I've been off and on since I was 15 anyway) regulates it, keeps things going. But even with the birth control, it may be harder to do. And that's okay, I guess. I'll take it as a blessing, 'cause it could be worse. And, hey, if it means more sexin' up to get things going, I am all for it, heh.

The interesting thing about it is all the symptoms I have that none of the previous doctors could put together. I mean, come on. It wasn't that hard. The most embarassing of the bunch, excess hair growth on arms, face, etc., acne/oily skin (I had MAJOR acne problems back in the day... thankfully all cleared up now, but it fits.) Weight gain is something else, and... well, heh, I used to be not-so-skinny, but I lost a lot of weight over the years, coming up at about 140 at 5'6", and dude, I'm a 36D, and those suckers weigh you down. So yeah, no, I'm not overweight, but I could stand lose 10 pounds or so... something that's really hard to come by, it seems, but I don't eat that much and I eat pretty all right and I'm pretty active. Kinda doesn't add up. Especially when you see your 5'7", 115 pound little sister gorging her face and not gaining a pound. And, on that note, a while back I had some bloodwork done, and they noticed that my cholesterol was high, which, you know, what?! I'm 19 and I have cholesterol problems? I don't think so. Well, that too is also a symptom. So, man. It's all kind of slipping into place.

The doctor gave me some sample birth control pills, brand new on the market that caters to people with PCOS, so I'm hoping that maybe they'll releave some of the symptoms. The birth control I've been on hasn't really done squat, except regulate my periods.

Another thing the doctor said, and this is fantastic, you know, seeing as how I always tend to be out of the norm, but she said that it's not normal for me to be having PCOS, as most who do are obese. But, she also said that because I have PCOS I run the risk of maybe having insulin problems when I get older. So, okay. I don't understand the reasoning here, as those who have it are obese, and those who are obese usually have insulin problems. So... kinda circulatory? I dunno. I'm putting it far, far on the back burner at this point.

Unfortunate for me, I needed a blood test. I am not good with blood tests. At all. I haven't passed out in recent years, though it's always been a near thing. So I'm trying not to freak the crap out, as I usually have my dad with me when I get blood tests and this time I was all damn alone. It was... okay. I always think I'm going to be okay at the beginning, but come towards the third vial I try to not hyperventilate and feel the damn needle in my vein, and then my hearing gets quiet and I very well feel my face turning white, hot and cold all at once. I hate it. I hate it so much. And it's such a stupid little thing, and yet. It's really funny in a sad way how many times I've freaked the nurses out because I got so pale. "Well," I said. "This has been one of the better times." And my nurse, Good Lord. If this was one of your better times, I'm just glad I wasn't around for the worse.

Yeah, well.

So. Test results back soonish, going back on the pill tomorrow, future baby-makin' plans a-okay. I hope.

I have soooo muuuuch to doooo but I have absolutely zero motivation. I felt my absolute worst yesterday, totally uncool because I was at work, but I'm feeling a lot better today. I love days off.

My cord to connect my iPod to my cigarette lighter in my car is BROK'D and I am SAD and going through a WITHDRAW. Driving two hours a day with no iPod is sad, sad business. Replacement is $80 OMGWAH. :(!

(Is it Thursday yet? COME ONNN.)

Comments

[hellogloworm.livejournal.com]

sarah! why didn't you tell me on the phone today?!

i'm glad you found out exactly what's going on cause i know how big of a struggle this has been for you over the years. the obesity thing? how lucky did you get... you have PCOS and you're hott. the other women with it are pretty jealous.

actually (and honestly), Dan and i were talking about how amazing you look nowadays. you've come along way. he was completely surprised to learn that you're single. ... but we can work on that one...

back to the subject at hand: if you can't have children (though i'm hoping you can!) then i'm going to make you adopt a chinese baby with me. cause our kids HAVE to grow up together.

[caithream.livejournal.com]

Oh Deborah. I don't even know what to say. Except that I love you SO MUCH and, yeah, if it comes down to it, I will totally adopt a chinese baby, ahaha! Seriously, wouldn't it be the weirdest thing ever if you, me, and Erin had kids at the same time? Oh man.

But thank you so much, and I miss you! ♥♥♥