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So if you've been following the ~story of my life~ you know my coworker and I kind of hate each other. She hates me for NO REASON other than that I exist (no seriously, I have ZERO IDEA), and I am endlessly tired of her generally being rude, condescending, and looking at me like I'm something scraped off the bottom of her shoe. I ALWAYS try to maintain a good mood at work, even if I don't feel like it, whereas she's almost always bitchy for reason I can't even attempt to understand.

Today my boss sends me a message: please add everyone on my phonecall list to the calendar for this afternoon, so I have time set aside to call them back. So, I do.

An hour later I get this long message from my coworker, demanding to know why I added so many people to the calendar and, short of outright calling me a moron, berated me about why I can't do that. So I simply replied with, "because [my boss] asked me to. She told me to set telephonic appointments for the afternoon, so I did." WELL. The reply I got back was something along the lines of, "seeing as how you were at the office meeting a few weeks ago [which, JFC, do not even get me started again] you should know to only set those appointments after 4pm" and berated me yet again that I am wrongwrongwrong and doing wrong things and full of WRONGNESS. So I replied back, "I am very much aware of setting them after 4pm. But seeing as how [my boss] said [and then I copy and pasted my boss's earlier message about SETTING THEM FOR THE WHOLE AFTERNOON], I went ahead and did it. I was not aware that I had to go through you when I am requested to do such things. Please advise for how to handle later situations." UGH I KNOW I'm so passive aggressive, and I know some people can't stand that, but that's my go-to defense mechanism.

I hit send and left for lunch. When I came back there was a reply back saying something like, "I wasn't aware that [boss] had told you to set appointments for the whole afternoon." And then, AND THEN, she still switches it on me to be my fault by saying, "In the future tell me these things. All I ask is that I be in the loop." Which, yes! That's 100% understandable. However, a) you PROBABLY could have done a better job of finding out what was going on instead of berating me like a lobotomized five year old and b) this was a conversation strictly between my boss and myself. How the hell am I supposed to know to include you in it? If anything, it should have been my boss to let her know.

So after that message I just went, "wtf ever" to myself and went on with my day. Including sounding not the least bit phased when I had to pass phonecalls on to her.

Just before I was getting ready to leave for the day, my boss goes, "Heeeeey, sooooo, I saw all those messages you and the coworker sent?" And I was like, lol awkward, but pretty much resolved to not sound sorry about it. AND, I even surprised myself by saying, "Yeah... [coworker], she's not... rude? But she's sometimes very... demanding and difficult." And my boss agreed that sometimes she does get a bit snippy. But I really just hope it sticks that I'm not having the greatest of times with her. OF COURSE then my boss went on to say that we aaaaall just need to ~communicate~ and that'll make everything just peachy, and yeah, I can still tell when "we" is directed at me. Which is so WONDERFULLY hypocritical, it's amazing. Like, for example, I'll get a phonecall and have to tell the person on the phone that my boss/my coworker isn't available at that time because, well, they aren't. BUT THEN I'll get a message from one of them stating quite curtly, "Next time it's so-and-so, interrupt me and let me know." YES. I AM PSYCHIC AND SUPPOSED TO KNOW THESE THINGS. A+ job at communicating there yourself. Oh my goddddd it's just, it's so frustrating. I am not even joking when I say that 75% of the time I feel like I'm never doing the right thing, or I'm two seconds away from pissing my coworker off. More often than not, if I have a question on something, I never ask my coworker, because she'll more than likely be snotty with me because I've interrupted her or whatever the fuck. Honestly, it's not like I'm aiming to be BFFs forever with either of them, but after working with them for a whole year I still feel like I'm their nuisance and stick out like a sore thumb. Communication my ass.

Whatever. Even though tomorrow and Friday will be awkward as hale, since my boss will be out of the office and it'll be just me and the coworker, I'm keeping in mind that in TWENTY DAYS I'll be leaving for Europe. Twenty days!! That's nothing. I still have so much to doooo lskdjfsldjf. So! I am going to try my best not to let this bother me so much, but. We'll see. I seriously cannot wait to just leave this place behind me.

In other WAY BETTER NEWS, happy birthday to my favoritest

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Also, this video? THIS VIDEO. HEARTS IN MY EYES FOREVER, OKAY.