Oh God Char, you just kind of... hit so close to home it's ridiculous. I'm always so bent out of shape trying to please everyone else that I don't even know what I want to do with myself most of the time. I have absolutely zero self-esteem, so I make up for it in making absolutely positively sure that no one hates me for what I do, whether it be at work or at home or online or whatever.
You don't think your opinions or wants or needs or desires are important enough to be given priority.
They aren't. That's... fuck. That's exactly what it is, and I don't think it's going to stop any time soon, and seeing it written out is just... I don't even know. But I'm seriously... I don't deserve you guys' concern and help, and, okay, I'm kind of crying a little bit now, don't tell anyone! Thank you, babe.
Hee, I did! I have to pop in the shower real quick, and of ALL THE NIGHTS that I want to chat the most, I have to be at work at 7:30 tomorrow morning, which is so uncool. But definitely reserve a spot for me there tomorrow night. :D ♥ x forever!
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Date: 2007-06-26 04:09 am (UTC)You don't think your opinions or wants or needs or desires are important enough to be given priority.
They aren't. That's... fuck. That's exactly what it is, and I don't think it's going to stop any time soon, and seeing it written out is just... I don't even know. But I'm seriously... I don't deserve you guys' concern and help, and, okay, I'm kind of crying a little bit now, don't tell anyone! Thank you, babe.
Hee, I did! I have to pop in the shower real quick, and of ALL THE NIGHTS that I want to chat the most, I have to be at work at 7:30 tomorrow morning, which is so uncool. But definitely reserve a spot for me there tomorrow night. :D ♥ x forever!