(James) Dean.

[caithream]

So, okay, this post. I have heard the is-Jensen-just-shy-or-a-complete-ass debate many times. The first time I heard it I was like, "You've got to be kidding me, right?" All those many, many interviews, never once have I seen him be an ass. I don't even know how that rumor got started. I definitely don't think he's shy, either. Nor socially awkward, nor anything.

I've thought about this long and hard before in the past with other fandoms. Actors who play the roles of people we love are always under the constant barrage of people throwing themselves at them because of their characters. I remember back in the LotR days, all those interviews with Dom, Billy, Elijah and Orlando, and hearing about girls breaking down and crying for God's sake, and I was like, "...uh." I mean, how awkward is that? I would never, ever be one of those girls, the crying "OMG MARRY MEEEEE" type, and I could never be around those type of people, because it embarrasses the hell out of me. When I went to the FX Show, I even felt funny about queuing up and getting autographs and pictures because... I dunno! They're just people, and I am getting their autograph? I don't know. I can't quite explain it. I loved it, but at the same time it's like, kind of awkward. It's like... the same kind of thing with this same comm; they're gathering together a bunch of stuff to send to Jensen for his birthday, and I've never really been able to wrap my head around that kind of stuff too. I mean, that's fantastic, kudos to them, but it's like... he's an actor, you don't even know him, and you're sending stuff to him for his birthday? I don't even know if I'm totally alone on this train of thought, or even if I'm explaining myself properly, but that kind of stuff has always made me feel awkward.

I am coming to the point! I promise. Heh. Jensen, I think, feels the same way. I think he just wants to do his job, what he loves, acting, without all the promo stuff. I'm sure he loves the photoshoots, loves being on set, loves meeting people who love the show, but when it comes to being in a very fan-oriented environment, especially with females, he wants to bail. And I don't blame him at all. The very idea of weeping, hyperactive girls throwing themselves on him makes me have embarrassment empathy into the next millenium. So no, I don't think he's an ass, even with the reports that he doesn't spend that much time on the carpets autographing and whatnot, because I'd want to get the hell out of there too. I don't think he's shy, or anything of that sort, because geez, have you seen the interviews with him and Jared?

Ah, Jared.

I have to, at this point, quote this:

Well, alright. But it's only because it came up, not self-aggrandizement.

So we're waiting in line at the Paley Festival, and I'm coming out of the men's room (which is a rather hard-to-spot door) and there's this high-pitched shrieking coming from my right beyond the ropes, so I'm turning left and looking right, and walk right into a guy who's looking to his left, and our belt buckles clink, and there's a potted plant on one side and a wall of security guards on the other (with their backs to us) so nowhere to go and I see this poor guy looking quite unhappy (the wrinkled forehead, the tightness around the eyes, not breathing) and I think 'Hm, Ackles is six foot exactly, so there' because we're exactly the same height and he's got this miserable expression that says 'please don't be a freak please don't be a freak' and I step into the potted plant to let him past, and he nods in thanks, but security is in 'protect the Pretty' mode and now he can't get past them either, (I scared them, coming out of nowhere) and his eyes are darting around and the shrieking (you know who you are, DeanGirls) was causing little birds to fall dead from the trees for blocks around and he was looking more uncomfortable and then (this is the part you'll think I'm inventing but hand on my heart) he suddenly exhaled, and the tension around his eyes relaxed a bit, so evident that I turned to see what had caused this. About thirty feet ahead was the photography backdrop area, lights and cameras and fans and reporters and Jared and he slid between me and the guards and Padalecki had a microphone in his face, and smiling at the reporter, but his eyes were on Ackles coming towards him.

Dean guards Sam. Jared guards Jensen.

Guys. I... guys.

I just. Nothing ever has made my heart hurt so much with love. I can't even put into words how much I love this, and the CROSSOVERS between their characters and sweet Jesus. With Jared, being the person that he is, so very outgoing and really into all the fan stuff, I think it's easy to put Jensen in the non-fan-lovin' catagory, but I just can't think so. He's just a little more of an introvert than I think people give him credit for. I would LOVE MORE THAN ANYTHING to just be able to meet them both on the street or whatever and have a casual conversation, and not at one of these convention dealios.

Anyway. I love this post, because it reaffirms what I think, and I'm pretty sure I'm not just projecting what I'd like him to be instead of what he really is. We've got evidence, heh.

...And if you didn't want to read all that, HERE OKAY FINE.



Omfg hi.

THIS POST. It's just too much. This and this made me cryyyy I was laughing so hard. OH GOD.

I was supposed to go to the art museum today and... I totally didn't. AHAHHAA. Seriously, I can't bring myself to care. I will just look the paintings up on Teh Internets! I hear it is handy.

Tomorrow I have two classes, one presentation, and a seven hour shift at work. SO MUCH SUCK. :(!!

Comments

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Seriously, is it so hard for people to understand the guy's just a, you know, guy? Granted, a guy with a job that puts him in the spotlight and a face that gets my panties in a twist, but I ain't gonna go shrieking that in his face, either. Man, if I had to deal with the fan activity any of these guys get, I'd become a freakin' hermit.

As it is, I'd call myself shy, in the sense that I'm uncomfortable in a crowd of strangers unless I've got someone with me that I know and trust. I've even been told things like, "I thought you didn't like me at first," by a now close friend or, "We didn't know what to do with you, you hardly said three words your entire first month," by co-workers I now make laugh on a daily basis. I need warm up time, and I don't like to talk about myself or my personal issues with people I don't know very, very well. I'm actually kind of crap at the whole "sharing and caring" moments altogether, I tend to keep things to myself. It's normal, it's human not to want to spill your guts to everyone, it doesn't make you an ass.

Jared and his love of all things ever in the universe, that's just a freak of nature. ♥

Also, your talk about conventions and meeting celebrities in controlled environments like that is EXACTLY how I feel. It makes me feel awkward, and I don't think I could ever actually attend something like that because it's sort of like going to the zoo.

In conclusion (and it's about damn time): I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. And I will never tell them that. Ever.

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Omg Kateh YES TO EVERYTHING. And, geez, I feel like such a hypocrite, but to be at the kind of status that he is, to have a whole darned lot of people know you and most everything about you is ridiculously unnerving. And yet I can't quite help myself. The difference is, like you said, if somehow the opportunity did arise, I would never ever relay that information or tell them, Yeah, kind of I love you guys so much it hurts because that's just awkward for both sides.

Conventions are funny things, because the actor/actress is forced to put on a smile and act like they really want to hear what you have to say. I'm sure they appreciate the support and enthusiasm, but it's got to get real old real quick. Which is exactly why I'd love to go to Vancouver, NOT to stalk, but just, you know, take a look around, and hey! If you happen to run into them and have a nice, real chat, dude, I am all over that. :D