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Jan. 11th, 2005 10:47 pmClasses went okay, I guess. Math is going to be... iffy, but Comp II I think will be okay. Our teacher really loves Stanley Kubrick's work, and we're going to be watching Paths of Glory in her class. Heh.
Today at work I was informed that I wasn't really allowed to answer phones anymore. I guess I messed up one too many times or something. Well, it would be kinda helpful if people would actually explain to me what the heck is going on with this and that instead of letting me gather snippets. I have asked for help, but they give me the basic information and not what I really need to know. It's aggravating, and now I've messed up, and I'm afraid people are talking about me, going, "What an idiot. She doesn't even know how to answer phones." I was assured it was nothing personal, and not any resentment came through about it, but still.
What makes it worse is that since I'm one of the two youngest people there, we - well, no I, actually - get blamed for the most retarded of stuff and there's only two people who'll vouch for me and say it wasn't me or whatever. It's idiotic and degrading and I feel like I'm not being taken seriously. I'm just 17, what the hell do I know. I watch MTV and use my freaking cell phone and chat with hOt bOyZ all day. Ugh.
I've determined that I need to get on with it and lose some freaking weight. Just like... 10-15 lbs., that's all, and I can't do it. I'm cutting lunches out of the picture and drinking more water, even though I don't like drinking much water anyway. I'll cut back more and more if that and going to the gym 3 times a week doesn't freaking work.
I think I need to sleep. Even though I should be working on scholarships.
Today at work I was informed that I wasn't really allowed to answer phones anymore. I guess I messed up one too many times or something. Well, it would be kinda helpful if people would actually explain to me what the heck is going on with this and that instead of letting me gather snippets. I have asked for help, but they give me the basic information and not what I really need to know. It's aggravating, and now I've messed up, and I'm afraid people are talking about me, going, "What an idiot. She doesn't even know how to answer phones." I was assured it was nothing personal, and not any resentment came through about it, but still.
What makes it worse is that since I'm one of the two youngest people there, we - well, no I, actually - get blamed for the most retarded of stuff and there's only two people who'll vouch for me and say it wasn't me or whatever. It's idiotic and degrading and I feel like I'm not being taken seriously. I'm just 17, what the hell do I know. I watch MTV and use my freaking cell phone and chat with hOt bOyZ all day. Ugh.
I've determined that I need to get on with it and lose some freaking weight. Just like... 10-15 lbs., that's all, and I can't do it. I'm cutting lunches out of the picture and drinking more water, even though I don't like drinking much water anyway. I'll cut back more and more if that and going to the gym 3 times a week doesn't freaking work.
I think I need to sleep. Even though I should be working on scholarships.
