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I can't even.

I can't even.

Oh my fuck.

I can't.

People, I cannot even tell you how hard I cried. But I'm a crier, okay, I get emotional, so maybe that's expected. But fuck. I cried and I cried and I cried. I'm still shaking, I just, fuck, I'm so embarrassingly stupidly invested in this show, I don't know how I'm still functioning. I am unapologetically in love with this story, down to my bones, down to my soul. Melodramatic, yay, that's me, but God, I mean it.

The inserts. Of the history of the Impala and Chuck telling the story of all the things they've done with her over the years, and that one little scene of them sitting by the side of the road with the stars overhead, I just completely lost it. Such a beautiful, quiet thing. That overlay with Chuck about the Impala is probably my favorite thing the show has done to date. Ever.

The back-and-forth between Lucifer-in-Sam and Sam was awful and wonderful. Major kudos to you, JPad. It scared the crap out of me.

The image that I just cannot get out of my head is Dean, with his face all swollen and bloodied, and somehow underneath all that you can see the horror and the despair and it's kind of killing my soul a little bit. It was awful and brilliant, that whole scene, that whole thing, I loved it so much for how it killed me. Sam falling in, and Dean's face, and the hole being closed and Dean looking down, and Dean's face. I can't even. It's late and I'm tired and I can't make words that are proper for it. Augh.

And holy fuck, Stull Cemetery. That's been waiting to happen since season 1. Amazing.

And Dean driving into it, with Rock of Ages playing, I think I may have actually had a seizure at that point. Of glee and tears and happiness and EVERYTHING. Godddd.

So... Chuck is God? Or some kind of physical manifestation thereof? I see what u did thar, Eric Kripke, you sly, heartless bastard.

And, okay. I'm not honestly checking my flist right now, because I'm tired, and because there will probably be some variations of OMG WAT DEAN IS TTLY GOING TO GIVE UP ON SAM AND THE WRITERS ARE STUPID AND NOBODY UNDERSTANDS HOW EPIC THEIR LOVE IS AND EW HET! Okay. Listen to me:

If you're just seeing Dean completely give up everything he's ever had to be with a woman and her son that, yeah, symbolizes a kind of family and a kind of normal that he's always wanted, and will probably never think twice of going after Sam in any sort of capacity, you're not looking hard enough. Did you not see the episode? The first couple of minutes? The speech he gave Sam, about how tied he is to him and how looking after Sam is all Dean is? I really hope that people don't up and forget so quickly the fundamentals of what this show is built on. Every single season, every single episode almost is about one of the brothers trying to save the other, emotionally, physically, whatever. You seriously think they're gonna drop all of that because, WHUP, hmm, Sam offed himself with Lucifer so I guess... Dean can go play house with Lisa for the rest of ever, LOL IDK. Yeah, not so much.

I think that Dean hasn't just up and left Sam behind, but he's kind of... in shock and processing and AAAAAAANGSTING like a Winchester, and yeah, maybe he'll stay for a week, or a month, or, okay, maybe even a year if it suits him, but dude. This is Dean Winchester we're talking about, the guy who sold his soul in a heartbeat to bring Sam back, who probably couldn't give two shits what he promised Sam because he went to hell for the guy and is probably pretty keen on getting him back. I hope so, anyway. Season six is one big scary thing of possibilities right now.

And HMMMmmm Sam at the very end! Which, thank God, if they hadn't even shown that five second shot of him, I would've punched my tv. INTERESTING: the streetlight flickering as they panned down. Coincidence? Heeeell no. What does it mean, WHAT DOES IT MEAN.

So that was Kripke's farewell. And that was definitely a series ender, but holy crap, thank God it's not.

The only two things I'm disappointed about: no Michael!Dean! I wanted okay, I WANTED. I guess AU fic will have to do, SIGH. Also, "that was the last Dean saw of Bobby for a long time." WHAT. NO, EXCUSE ME, WHAT. I mean, thank you GOD (no really) for un-killing him, but "a long time" had better mean like, six months. AAUUGHH.

In summation (with thanks to ack_attack):




I love you, Supernatural. I really really really do. (But it's going to be a while before I can watch that episode again because my heart okay, my heart.)