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So a week or two ago my friend Mark called me to tell me that our friend Jimmy had just been admitted to the hospital for some kind of mental breakdown. Which, you know, really freaked me out, and he said he didn't have too many details at the time, just that he was still in the hospital and on some meds. I've been waiting for an update until this morning, when Mark called again, saying that Jimmy has been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I don't know how severe. His dad and stepmom are gonna bring him home in a few days, but when he recovers, he only be back to 90% of his old self. If he has another breakdown it'll be 70%, another and it'll be 50%, and so on. I'm going back home this coming Thursday so I'll get the chance to see him, but Mark said Jimmy's dad has a list of things that we can't mention or do while we're with Jimmy, like use sarcasm or mention caffiene and stuff.

I just, I'm so... I'm in shock and completely confused and worried and wondering when the hell this actually happened, because I mean, sure, he had a few minor problems here and there, but everybody does. I've never seen the symptoms and would have never ever have thought he'd be the kind of person to have a mental breakdown. He was apparently hardly sleeping at all, taking nitric oxide with Xanax, and man, I've been to his condo before, and every time I've gone it's been BEYOND messy. Like, you couldn't even see the floors and there was absolutely no space on his kitchen counter because it was all dirty dishes and old food messy. Some of this, I absolutely KNOW, has to do with his girlfriend he's had since senior year of high school. I don't know if anyone remembers, but they were the couple I was complaining about last summer and whatnot because I kept trying to call and hang out with them, and I would never get a call back. They do some STUPIDLY awkard PDA in public, eating each others faces when me and Mark would be standing RIGHT THERE. He was never ever like this before she came along, so I'm pretty sure it's all her. I know she was the one who discouraged him to clean, and who makes him be with her at ALL. TIMES. of the day, 24/7. She would get pissy when he went anywhere without her, and she's just overbearing and annoying and a good chunk of the problem here. Fuck. He was my friend first. I've known him and Mark since I was in fucking pre-school. I just, I don't know. I hope they realize that SHE is the biggest part of the problem and tell her to stay away, or whatever.

I know very little about schizophrenia, and I don't even fucking know, is he going to be a completely different person when I see him? How could this have happened? Just... completely snapping? Was it a build-up over time? Mark said the doctors said this was going to happen sometime in his lifetime, but how do they fucking know? I don't know. I guess I'll know more when I see him, maybe. This is just... I'm having a hard time processing this.

To top it off, I woke up this morning and looked in my roommate's room to see Robot's cage (our hamster) on the floor and shattered with Percy just SITTING there next to it. He liked to jump on top of it before, and I don't even know how the hell he pushed it off. I grabbed him and threw him into my room, and I can't find Robot anywhere, but I can't find any evidence that Percy decided he'd make a good meal. The poor thing's so tiny, he's gotta be around here somewhere. And how the hell do you punish a cat, I mean really. I was pissed, but I don't know what to do. Sigh.

So yeah. Not necessarily off to a good start for the day so far. Not to mention that I go into work soon, 2:00-10:30. Auughhh.