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I've been in a funk all evening for no reason whatsoever and I'm tired, and tired of it, and tired of putting on the many masks of Sarah to make everyone else feel better, and I'm not an insensitive person, not in the least, the exact opposite, in fact, but sometimes I get to the point where I don't care, don't want to care, and then I end up feeling like the crappiest person alive when I don't. I'm tired of it.

Went to Urban Outfitters in Ybor yesterday and bought things and generally did not feel bad about spending, um, $90 on only three items. That section of town, the trolley going by every few minutes reminds me so much of Chicago it hurts, and I miss it there so damn bad.

I've hit 5000 words on my spn_summergen fic. I think it's kind of run away with itself.

This is the best fucking review I've read yet for Jensen's play and it makes me ache and generally feel like a big dumb girl because it kind of makes me weepy. Okay.

And no one really needs to know the noises I make when I see this, but suffice it to say, holy mother of God. Sometimes it just hits me, all over again like new, stomach flips and everything. Ngaaaahh.

Tommorrow I work 3:00-10:30, and wouldn't you know, the third person - imperative for closing - can't work. A two person close. This is going to be thrilling, I'm sure.

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Don't worry honey I get like that. Its almost as if you CAN'T care anymore. And those days are fine. You can't always be the caring one. I think your brain gives you days like that because you aren't caring enough about yourself...I don't know though. That's just how it works for me.

WOW Awesome on the amount of words!!! I am only up to 1,377. Heh. And 5 pages! WHOOHOO!! Hahah but YAY thats sooo great! YAY FOR WRITING!

That review was AWESOME! I'm so glad he's doing well.

How did work end up doing?

I think that makes sense! Also generally being a grump doesn't help matters much. Sigh, self.

GO US OMG. EEEEE I'M SO HAPPY THAT YOU'RE WRITING. ♥

It was actually better than I thought! It was pretty darn slow, so we got everything done and even got out 10 minutes early, so, yeah, pretty good. :)

YAY! I'm glad it wasn't completely sucky! I fell at work yesterday if it makes you feel any better and have a huge bruise all over my knee and my hip. Heh. It kinda hurts but thats just me being a stupid clutz!

YAY US! WE ROCK! Yeah I'm going slow at it though. And I wanted to write tonite but as I was telling Char I think I burned out my retinas...Children shouldnt play with dead(HAHAH I SPELLED DEAN!) things was on and Dean with his yelling and then crying...the hottness of it burned my retinas so now my eyes are acting all funny. Heh

!!! Omg! Are you okay? DUDE I am such a clutz myself. It's a wonder I don't have burns on top of burns from spilling coffee or something HAHA.

OH NOES TEH CHIN QUIVER. Well, OKAY, that seems like a good enough excuse to pause in writing for the night, heeee.

Yeah I'm fine. My knee just kind of hurts lol the bruise though, it's like the size of the bottom of a coke can. Its HUGE! I hurt myself all the time at work though. I kicked a plastic bin at work before Christmas and I still have a mark from where it bounced off the wall and hit me in the shin. I also have two scars from cutting myself with box cutters. Who knew working with lotion could be so dangerous. HAH! Yeah if I worked at Starbucks I would have already gotten a third degree burn or something. That's just how cool I am.

OH NOES!!! Yeah, I'm gonna hit it hard tonight I think. I may not come up with a lot but I'm gonna try. :D