Hee! Lost indeed. OH if only Ian Somerhaulder was there to live with me. *Daydreams*
Don't be a 'Grass is greener' person.
I definitely, definitely, definitely understand what you're saying. I'm not the kind of person who takes decision-making lightly, even if I'm spending $15 on a shirt, or something, but yeah, something like this? I've been thinking about if for a while, and will continue to. I've told my mom many times, "Okay, well, what if I do this, and find that I've just made the biggest mistake of my life?" And... mother's optimism though it may be, she always tells me, "Because it won't be, because you've got a good head on your shoulders, and because you'd be doing what you want, not just a on-a-whim type of thing."
I mean... I've got two wonderfully loving parents, a good roof over my head, money, food, no bills, etc., and I have to really wonder why I want to give all that up. Well, I don't. But at the same time, this yearn for change and independence is sometimes just absolutely driving me up the wall, and I figure, if anything, by the time fall of '08 hits I'll be 21, so it's not like I'm leaving just to leave, I'm leaving because I'll be an adult, and wanting/finding independence is not only totally okay, it's encouraged. So. So! I don't know. I'm always paranoid that it'll be a "grass is greener" kind of thing, but I won't know until I try, you know?
Oh goodness. I'm sorry to dish all that out on you! But if feels so good to have someone to talk it through with. You guys are more of a lifesaver than I think you know, really. (And I hope you feel better soon omg!) ♥♥♥♥♥♥
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Don't be a 'Grass is greener' person.
I definitely, definitely, definitely understand what you're saying. I'm not the kind of person who takes decision-making lightly, even if I'm spending $15 on a shirt, or something, but yeah, something like this? I've been thinking about if for a while, and will continue to. I've told my mom many times, "Okay, well, what if I do this, and find that I've just made the biggest mistake of my life?" And... mother's optimism though it may be, she always tells me, "Because it won't be, because you've got a good head on your shoulders, and because you'd be doing what you want, not just a on-a-whim type of thing."
I mean... I've got two wonderfully loving parents, a good roof over my head, money, food, no bills, etc., and I have to really wonder why I want to give all that up. Well, I don't. But at the same time, this yearn for change and independence is sometimes just absolutely driving me up the wall, and I figure, if anything, by the time fall of '08 hits I'll be 21, so it's not like I'm leaving just to leave, I'm leaving because I'll be an adult, and wanting/finding independence is not only totally okay, it's encouraged. So. So! I don't know. I'm always paranoid that it'll be a "grass is greener" kind of thing, but I won't know until I try, you know?
Oh goodness. I'm sorry to dish all that out on you! But if feels so good to have someone to talk it through with. You guys are more of a lifesaver than I think you know, really. (And I hope you feel better soon omg!) ♥♥♥♥♥♥