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I woke up this morning to the sound of my dad playing "You know my name" by the Beatles. It was quite interesting to say the least.
Tonight I'm having a "party" thing... sort of for my birthday but not. Inviting a few friends... watching "The Ring"... Eeep.
Oi. Moody Merry. Quite nice.
The thing that's gotten to me lately is the fact of how obsessed I am with the fandom and with the LotR lads. I mean, I sit there in school looking at the clock just waiting for when I can go home and go on to ewfn. It's what I look forward to everyday. I wouldn't say it's what keeps me sane, although quite close to it. Some people would call it pathetic, to say the least. And maybe it is. But I really can't find anything else that makes me happier. It's not like I'm hurting anyone else (except maybe myself) by doing this, so why shouldn't I? It's normally healthy to have an obsession, right? Of course. I don't go as far as some people; take stalking for example (heh). I also know when to keep myself restrained. Maybe I'm just doing this for reassurance or something... telling myself that it's perfectly normal. Normal I am not, but there are plenty of other people in the world who are into the same stuff I am. I don't know. It's not like I go proclaiming it into the streets telling everyone what I do and who I'm hung up on. It's kind of embarassing sometimes. Ah, well. I've almost given up on what the world thinks. So, I guess you could say I'm secure with it and myself. It's quite fun... quite fun... muwahahaha...
Tonight I'm having a "party" thing... sort of for my birthday but not. Inviting a few friends... watching "The Ring"... Eeep.
Oi. Moody Merry. Quite nice.
The thing that's gotten to me lately is the fact of how obsessed I am with the fandom and with the LotR lads. I mean, I sit there in school looking at the clock just waiting for when I can go home and go on to ewfn. It's what I look forward to everyday. I wouldn't say it's what keeps me sane, although quite close to it. Some people would call it pathetic, to say the least. And maybe it is. But I really can't find anything else that makes me happier. It's not like I'm hurting anyone else (except maybe myself) by doing this, so why shouldn't I? It's normally healthy to have an obsession, right? Of course. I don't go as far as some people; take stalking for example (heh). I also know when to keep myself restrained. Maybe I'm just doing this for reassurance or something... telling myself that it's perfectly normal. Normal I am not, but there are plenty of other people in the world who are into the same stuff I am. I don't know. It's not like I go proclaiming it into the streets telling everyone what I do and who I'm hung up on. It's kind of embarassing sometimes. Ah, well. I've almost given up on what the world thinks. So, I guess you could say I'm secure with it and myself. It's quite fun... quite fun... muwahahaha...